The road back to school always seems to just appear out of nowhere and if you're anything like me, you've probably missed the turn off a few times during the blissful summer days.
With less than a week before I have to be back to the daily grind, I am only just realizing that I no longer have time to finish those things I told myself I would get done before summer is through. Yes I have launched my website, but my YouTube channel is still a collection of rough ideas rather than an active account. I have a great opportunity to become an assignment editor for an online magazine but I keep wondering if I will be able to find the time.
I always manage to cope (fairly) well under pressure, but I would rather have the opportunity to choose how my time is spent rather than jumping from task to task like a rabid monkey until I eventually bottom out.
This year back to school seems to be twice as stressful as usual. Perhaps it is because I know that this is my last "real" summer vacation. Soon I will have to grow up, get a job, become a working member of society and holy shit is it scary. I've been in school since pre-K, that's nearly 20 years, and every year I got my summer out at the lake, or at the very least some relaxation time.
Twenty-two years old and I'm scared shitless. This is the first time that everything really changes, one final year stressing over grades and focusing on my GPA; things that no one in the real world really cares about.
So as summer comes to a close, I'm going to try to shift my focus and enjoy this last year before I change course from school to career mode. In our society so much emphasis is placed on attending university, starting a career, mortgaging a house and having a family. I want to try to shift away from that mold and do things my own way. It might not work out the way I hope, but at the least it will give me the opportunity to live the life on my own terms.